Not everything our eyes are drawn to can stay in our sights forever. Not everything our hands reach for can be ours to hold for a lifetime. Sometimes we’re allowed glimpses of things… worlds we cannot be a part of, or things we love but cannot keep. Understand that this is not a punishment. It’s not that we haven’t earned happiness, or that we don’t deserve it – it is simply because some happiness is transient and cannot stay with us forever. But what defines us as the person we are is how we accept our fate and how gracefully we let go of those things we wish to love forever for but cannot hold onto. It’s not easy – I won’t tell you it is because it’s not… but somehow it feels ‘right’. I cannot explain it any other way than that, just that you will come to an understanding that as painful as it is – this is the way things are meant to be. But the choice of how we move forward from this loss is ours and ours alone. We can choose to be bitter over the injustice of being unable to possess the happiness we desire – or we can choose to carry a piece of that happiness with us, simply by being grateful we were lucky enough to know happiness… to call it by its name and say that it was ours for that brief time we had it. Because as much as it hurts to let go of something like that… it’s nothing compared to the lifetime of emptiness we would have lived without it.
I believe it is entirely possible to love somebody too much; To give so much of yourself that you find you are almost empty with nothing but a longing to fill yourself with thoughts of them. Make no mistake, love can be a destructive force… it can consume you to the point of imbalance… You can give so much of yourself away and take on so much of someone else that you become like a boat taking on water… I believe you can drown in a person if you let yourself. You can think them, breathe them, you can want to become part of them so badly you that it’s almost as if you no longer exist… you become them. Their desires are yours. Their hopes, their aspirations and their dreams become yours. You exist solely as an extension of them. You become utterly and completely absorbed by them… slowly, they become your everything. And the danger of course in loving someone too much… in losing yourself so completely within someone else that you can no longer exist without them is that the moment you lose that person… you lose EVERYTHING…
I believe it is entirely possible to love somebody too much; To give so much of yourself that you find you are almost empty with nothing but a longing to fill yourself with thoughts of them. Make no mistake, love can be a destructive force… it can consume you to the point of imbalance… You can give so much of yourself away and take on so much of someone else that you become like a boat taking on water… I believe you can drown in a person if you let yourself. You can think them, breathe them, you can want to become part of them so badly you that it’s almost as if you no longer exist… you become them. Their desires are yours. Their hopes, their aspirations and their dreams become yours. You exist solely as an extension of them. You become utterly and completely absorbed by them… slowly, they become your everything. And the danger of course in loving someone too much… in losing yourself so completely within someone else that you can no longer exist without them is that the moment you lose that person… you lose EVERYTHING…
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